.I’ve been so lost. I miss me sometimes. I’m so lost…

• .the world seemed so dark.

• .aku rela mati. aku sungguh penat. aku penat. aku nak mati. aku rela mati.

• got so fucked up....so silent...
• ...my manager at work had to pull me aside to talk. asked me what's wrong....I am that different now....
• ...it's fucked up.

• my life isn't the greatest.... i feel pain all the time.... i feel sad everyday....forcing a big smile to cover.
• with that suffering.... I made people that hurt me, suffer too. I don't feel better, but I want them to feel as close to the pain I feel. and that is enough.
• .I am no longer a good human being.

I thought it was love, but I guess I must be dreaming about feeling something instead of you.